1 00:00:01,449 --> 00:00:04,763 Previously on Forgive Me. 2 00:00:11,011 --> 00:00:14,531 Oh, what commit he sinned. 3 00:00:14,531 --> 00:00:15,981 What sin is that? 4 00:00:15,981 --> 00:00:18,466 Becoming pregnant. 5 00:00:18,466 --> 00:00:21,159 Using in-vitro, using a donor. 6 00:00:21,159 --> 00:00:23,540 Mmm, those are sins, yeah. 7 00:00:23,540 --> 00:00:24,369 Why? 8 00:00:25,266 --> 00:00:26,785 Why are they sins? 9 00:00:28,235 --> 00:00:30,823 What did Jesus ever say about in-vitro fertilization? 10 00:00:30,823 --> 00:00:32,135 Well, nothing. 11 00:00:33,930 --> 00:00:37,002 I'm runnin' out of time and I want to be a mother. 12 00:00:37,002 --> 00:00:38,624 Okay, I just want to be a mother 13 00:00:38,624 --> 00:00:41,455 and I cannot see how that's a sin. 14 00:00:42,663 --> 00:00:44,251 Wanting to be a mother is not a sin. 15 00:00:44,251 --> 00:00:45,493 I want you to see a doctor. 16 00:00:45,493 --> 00:00:46,322 What's the matter with him? 17 00:00:46,322 --> 00:00:47,288 Nothing. 18 00:00:47,288 --> 00:00:50,257 It's not just nightmares, it's, 19 00:00:50,257 --> 00:00:52,845 it's like waking nightmares. 20 00:00:52,845 --> 00:00:54,019 Waking dreams. 21 00:00:58,748 --> 00:01:01,475 So this is it right here, this spot. 22 00:01:01,475 --> 00:01:02,441 What is it? 23 00:01:02,441 --> 00:01:03,615 It's a spot. 24 00:01:05,720 --> 00:01:07,136 Is it cancer? 25 00:01:07,136 --> 00:01:09,241 I have a mass in my head. 26 00:01:11,071 --> 00:01:12,555 What's it about? 27 00:01:14,039 --> 00:01:16,421 It's about two millimeters. 28 00:03:00,628 --> 00:03:02,009 Sorry. 29 00:03:02,009 --> 00:03:03,010 I've sinned. 30 00:03:04,701 --> 00:03:05,530 Okay. 31 00:03:08,118 --> 00:03:10,707 I feel like I know you. 32 00:03:10,707 --> 00:03:12,606 I feel the same way. 33 00:03:12,606 --> 00:03:13,538 You do? 34 00:03:13,538 --> 00:03:16,196 When I see you, you know, 35 00:03:16,196 --> 00:03:18,750 up there doing your... 36 00:03:18,750 --> 00:03:21,097 You feel like you know me. 37 00:03:29,243 --> 00:03:30,658 You're staring. 38 00:03:32,315 --> 00:03:33,834 It's okay. 39 00:03:33,834 --> 00:03:37,493 There's not really a lot else to look at in here. 40 00:03:37,493 --> 00:03:38,321 Duh. 41 00:03:40,875 --> 00:03:43,878 How long have you been coming here? 42 00:03:43,878 --> 00:03:45,708 About three years. 43 00:03:45,708 --> 00:03:47,019 You haven't confessed before. 44 00:03:47,019 --> 00:03:48,987 I've been pretty good. 45 00:03:56,408 --> 00:03:58,583 I'm contemplating divorce. 46 00:04:00,654 --> 00:04:01,586 Well, um. 47 00:04:03,484 --> 00:04:06,246 I think that married people do. 48 00:04:06,246 --> 00:04:08,800 You know, it's, it's part of deciding 49 00:04:08,800 --> 00:04:11,527 whether or not to stay committed. 50 00:04:11,527 --> 00:04:12,769 But you gotta look at it, 51 00:04:12,769 --> 00:04:13,805 you gotta think about what life would be like 52 00:04:13,805 --> 00:04:15,289 to not be married. 53 00:04:16,704 --> 00:04:20,190 I just don't want to spend the rest of my life 54 00:04:20,190 --> 00:04:22,814 thinking I made a mistake. 55 00:04:22,814 --> 00:04:23,987 Me, neither. 56 00:04:27,301 --> 00:04:28,578 What? What? 57 00:04:28,578 --> 00:04:30,994 You mean you want to go out and get laid 58 00:04:30,994 --> 00:04:32,755 by a bunch of different people or something? 59 00:04:32,755 --> 00:04:34,860 You think that's a more exciting, 60 00:04:34,860 --> 00:04:36,034 happy way to live? 61 00:04:36,034 --> 00:04:38,968 Yeah. 62 00:04:40,556 --> 00:04:41,833 I mean, those other things, 63 00:04:41,833 --> 00:04:43,386 that's not what God wants for you 64 00:04:43,386 --> 00:04:45,492 and it's not even what you think it is. 65 00:04:45,492 --> 00:04:47,183 It's not a way to be happy. 66 00:04:47,183 --> 00:04:51,325 Maybe I just haven't found the right person yet. 67 00:04:58,090 --> 00:05:02,267 I just don't want to be lonely for the rest of my life. 68 00:05:04,304 --> 00:05:05,132 Hey. 69 00:05:06,029 --> 00:05:08,135 Scares me to sometimes. 70 00:05:08,135 --> 00:05:09,067 If you don't want to be alone, 71 00:05:09,067 --> 00:05:10,033 why'd you become a priest? 72 00:06:02,741 --> 00:06:03,811 He's awake. 73 00:06:07,884 --> 00:06:09,230 Good afternoon. 74 00:06:09,230 --> 00:06:11,578 How are you feeling? 75 00:06:11,578 --> 00:06:12,406 Huh. 76 00:06:13,752 --> 00:06:14,581 Better. 77 00:06:16,376 --> 00:06:18,688 You want some coffee? 78 00:06:18,688 --> 00:06:19,517 Juice? 79 00:06:21,035 --> 00:06:22,485 Yeah, juice, juice. 80 00:06:22,485 --> 00:06:24,384 John Dominic, can we get some juice, please? 81 00:06:24,384 --> 00:06:25,833 Yes, of course. 82 00:06:28,595 --> 00:06:31,218 Do you need to change anything? 83 00:06:42,505 --> 00:06:44,714 When the doctor is here, 84 00:06:44,714 --> 00:06:46,509 I want you to listen to her and don't be 85 00:06:46,509 --> 00:06:48,028 so damn obstinate. 86 00:06:50,375 --> 00:06:52,446 They can do more for you. 87 00:06:54,483 --> 00:06:57,071 Why won't you do the radiation? 88 00:07:01,904 --> 00:07:04,320 It makes everything worse. 89 00:07:04,320 --> 00:07:06,909 The side effects are temporary. 90 00:07:06,909 --> 00:07:08,635 The cure is permanent. 91 00:07:08,635 --> 00:07:10,775 They make drugs for side effects. 92 00:07:10,775 --> 00:07:12,501 There's every chance you'll recover 93 00:07:12,501 --> 00:07:15,262 but only if you do the radiation. 94 00:07:16,643 --> 00:07:18,610 It just makes it worse. 95 00:07:24,374 --> 00:07:25,859 This is the doctor. 96 00:07:25,859 --> 00:07:28,655 I told her you were too cranky to leave the house. 97 00:07:33,349 --> 00:07:35,489 You still angry with me? 98 00:07:36,732 --> 00:07:37,940 Yeah. 99 00:07:37,940 --> 00:07:39,424 Good. 100 00:07:39,424 --> 00:07:43,117 Punishing me will give you something to live for. 101 00:07:44,222 --> 00:07:46,017 Okay, here you go. 102 00:07:46,017 --> 00:07:47,363 Let's get you up a little bit. 103 00:07:47,363 --> 00:07:49,330 Nope, get rid of it. 104 00:07:49,330 --> 00:07:52,023 Fuzzy tongue dried out feeling. 105 00:07:52,023 --> 00:07:53,473 The doctor's here. 106 00:07:53,473 --> 00:07:54,750 Hello, Doctor. 107 00:07:54,750 --> 00:07:56,268 Call me Agnes. 108 00:07:56,268 --> 00:07:58,305 Okay, Fathers, let's give them a little bit of privacy, 109 00:07:58,305 --> 00:07:59,409 shall we? 110 00:07:59,409 --> 00:08:00,272 Thanks for coming. 111 00:08:00,272 --> 00:08:01,411 My pleasure. 112 00:08:11,249 --> 00:08:14,977 They tell me you didn't want to come back in. 113 00:08:19,153 --> 00:08:21,811 The surgery went well enough. 114 00:08:21,811 --> 00:08:23,572 We got all there could be got. 115 00:08:23,572 --> 00:08:25,125 In this situation, 116 00:08:25,125 --> 00:08:26,402 a good success. 117 00:08:28,059 --> 00:08:31,545 We'll target what's left with radiation. 118 00:08:31,545 --> 00:08:33,167 That's what you're gonna have to do 119 00:08:33,167 --> 00:08:35,929 if you want to get clear of this. 120 00:08:37,309 --> 00:08:39,346 I'm not sure that's what I should do. 121 00:08:39,346 --> 00:08:42,487 Surgery alone doesn't usually do it. 122 00:08:43,523 --> 00:08:45,352 Your tumor grew really fast. 123 00:08:45,352 --> 00:08:47,768 It took me by surprise. 124 00:08:47,768 --> 00:08:49,252 I'm sorry about that, 125 00:08:49,252 --> 00:08:50,668 but you know I was just messing with you when I said 126 00:08:50,668 --> 00:08:53,740 that your brain tumor was God's will. 127 00:08:55,465 --> 00:08:57,295 I can be a real bitch. 128 00:09:00,470 --> 00:09:02,093 The sooner we start, the better the results. 129 00:09:02,093 --> 00:09:05,337 I understand what you want me to do. 130 00:09:05,337 --> 00:09:07,167 And I'm praying on it. 131 00:09:09,065 --> 00:09:11,447 I'll let you know, but it was really nice 132 00:09:11,447 --> 00:09:14,070 of you to come here and tell me. 133 00:09:19,282 --> 00:09:22,562 I only came 'cause I want to confess. 134 00:09:23,977 --> 00:09:24,805 Yeah. 135 00:09:32,641 --> 00:09:35,920 Forgive me Father, for I have sinned. 136 00:09:38,474 --> 00:09:39,475 It's been... 137 00:09:41,581 --> 00:09:42,547 Awhile. 138 00:09:42,547 --> 00:09:43,548 It's okay. 139 00:09:44,653 --> 00:09:45,515 Go ahead. 140 00:09:45,515 --> 00:09:46,344 What's wrong? 141 00:09:46,344 --> 00:09:48,277 Everything. 142 00:09:48,277 --> 00:09:49,519 Everything you said would happen, 143 00:09:49,519 --> 00:09:51,452 everything I was worried about. 144 00:09:57,804 --> 00:09:59,633 I spoke out of turn. 145 00:10:02,498 --> 00:10:03,879 I didn't know when you came to confess 146 00:10:03,879 --> 00:10:06,813 to the in-vitro you were already pregnant. 147 00:10:06,813 --> 00:10:08,884 Because I didn't tell you on purpose. 148 00:10:08,884 --> 00:10:10,126 I didn't need you to censor yourself. 149 00:10:10,126 --> 00:10:12,542 I wanted to hear the rule of the church, 150 00:10:12,542 --> 00:10:13,371 argue it. 151 00:10:18,134 --> 00:10:19,584 Everybody sins. 152 00:10:20,723 --> 00:10:23,277 The reasons you do it, the better. 153 00:10:25,590 --> 00:10:26,902 Sinning out of love, 154 00:10:26,902 --> 00:10:28,144 wanting to be a mother, 155 00:10:28,144 --> 00:10:31,251 I don't think it's a bad motivation to sin. 156 00:10:31,251 --> 00:10:34,323 Makes it not right, but it's understandable. 157 00:10:34,323 --> 00:10:36,428 God doesn't understand. 158 00:10:38,983 --> 00:10:40,640 I believe he does. 159 00:10:43,470 --> 00:10:45,299 Are you gonna, I mean, 160 00:10:46,197 --> 00:10:48,924 I think you'd be a good mom. 161 00:10:48,924 --> 00:10:50,166 Right? 162 00:10:50,166 --> 00:10:51,340 Good provider. 163 00:10:52,824 --> 00:10:54,032 You already showed the lengths you're willing 164 00:10:54,032 --> 00:10:56,034 to go to for your child. 165 00:10:59,555 --> 00:11:00,418 Too far. 166 00:11:06,389 --> 00:11:07,287 It's twins. 167 00:11:10,670 --> 00:11:13,673 But one of them's not gonna make it. 168 00:11:15,571 --> 00:11:16,779 Didn't make it. 169 00:11:17,987 --> 00:11:19,679 It's dead inside me. 170 00:11:24,338 --> 00:11:26,686 You're right, I was selfish. 171 00:11:30,206 --> 00:11:32,692 I don't think it's selfish. 172 00:11:32,692 --> 00:11:34,970 They told me it was gonna be dangerous 173 00:11:34,970 --> 00:11:36,557 for someone my age. 174 00:11:37,731 --> 00:11:39,699 But you couldn't have known. 175 00:11:39,699 --> 00:11:41,079 Well, you knew. 176 00:11:44,427 --> 00:11:45,394 No, I didn't. 177 00:11:45,394 --> 00:11:47,914 Oh, tampering with God's will. 178 00:11:47,914 --> 00:11:50,882 Sure, okay, yeah, I mean, 179 00:11:50,882 --> 00:11:53,057 yeah, you did that, right? 180 00:11:55,611 --> 00:11:57,613 God isn't punishing you. 181 00:11:58,579 --> 00:11:59,408 Hey. 182 00:12:01,893 --> 00:12:03,653 He didn't punish you. 183 00:12:04,758 --> 00:12:06,277 Not on this earth. 184 00:12:08,141 --> 00:12:10,626 These, these things happen. 185 00:12:10,626 --> 00:12:12,421 It was risky. 186 00:12:12,421 --> 00:12:14,768 But the other baby, 187 00:12:14,768 --> 00:12:16,701 the other baby's okay. 188 00:12:16,701 --> 00:12:18,254 He's gonna be okay. 189 00:12:22,949 --> 00:12:24,571 But I'm sure you did everything you could. 190 00:12:24,571 --> 00:12:27,608 I'm sure that you did everything right. 191 00:12:27,608 --> 00:12:28,886 He is punishing me. 192 00:12:28,886 --> 00:12:29,749 No. 193 00:12:34,754 --> 00:12:35,893 No. 194 00:12:35,893 --> 00:12:38,481 I'm sorry you're hurting so badly, but no. 195 00:12:38,481 --> 00:12:40,035 They were always different. 196 00:12:40,035 --> 00:12:42,762 One strong heartbeat, one faint heartbeat. 197 00:12:42,762 --> 00:12:44,349 One big, one small. 198 00:12:45,972 --> 00:12:48,422 One taking all the nutrients. 199 00:12:49,734 --> 00:12:52,668 So what's gonna happen now? 200 00:12:52,668 --> 00:12:53,773 Are they gonna take it out? 201 00:12:53,773 --> 00:12:54,843 No. 202 00:12:54,843 --> 00:12:56,568 It's gonna dissolve. 203 00:12:56,568 --> 00:12:57,569 Be absorbed. 204 00:12:58,881 --> 00:13:02,298 It'll become nutrients for the other one. 205 00:13:03,230 --> 00:13:05,025 I'm sorry. 206 00:13:05,025 --> 00:13:07,545 I can't even mourn it. 207 00:13:07,545 --> 00:13:10,790 It's not stillborn, it's not a miscarriage. 208 00:13:10,790 --> 00:13:12,446 It's just vanishing. 209 00:13:13,516 --> 00:13:14,932 A vanishing twin. 210 00:13:15,829 --> 00:13:17,693 You are mourning it. 211 00:13:19,246 --> 00:13:21,352 Just stop feeling guilty. 212 00:13:23,112 --> 00:13:24,182 I'm scared. 213 00:13:25,252 --> 00:13:26,495 Of what? 214 00:13:26,495 --> 00:13:29,843 Of my vanishing twin going to hell. 215 00:13:29,843 --> 00:13:33,467 It wasn't born, it didn't need to repent. 216 00:13:34,952 --> 00:13:36,022 Agnes, Agnes. 217 00:13:38,507 --> 00:13:40,992 You can put your trust in God. 218 00:13:41,821 --> 00:13:42,822 He's loving. 219 00:13:47,412 --> 00:13:49,242 Your baby is with him. 220 00:13:50,899 --> 00:13:52,141 You baby's at peace, 221 00:13:52,141 --> 00:13:55,075 so you should feel peace knowing that. 222 00:13:56,836 --> 00:14:00,115 Your baby did not go to hell. 223 00:14:00,115 --> 00:14:01,702 Are you sure? 224 00:14:01,702 --> 00:14:03,566 Yeah. 225 00:14:03,566 --> 00:14:04,567 I feel like an idiot. 226 00:14:04,567 --> 00:14:06,052 I feel so prestigious. 227 00:14:06,052 --> 00:14:07,605 Why wouldn't you worry about 228 00:14:07,605 --> 00:14:09,124 your baby's eternal soul? 229 00:14:09,124 --> 00:14:10,780 Why won't you worry about your own soul? 230 00:14:10,780 --> 00:14:13,576 Will I even be able to love this baby 231 00:14:13,576 --> 00:14:15,578 that killed the other one? 232 00:14:15,578 --> 00:14:16,407 Yes. 233 00:14:17,580 --> 00:14:20,860 It's, it wasn't the child's doing. 234 00:14:20,860 --> 00:14:22,309 You know that. 235 00:14:22,309 --> 00:14:23,690 That's not greed. 236 00:14:23,690 --> 00:14:25,761 It ate all the nutrients. 237 00:14:27,383 --> 00:14:28,591 He took all the food. 238 00:14:28,591 --> 00:14:30,352 I am sure that there is a more 239 00:14:30,352 --> 00:14:33,182 scientific explanation than greed. 240 00:14:34,563 --> 00:14:36,737 I don't really give a shit about science right now. 241 00:14:36,737 --> 00:14:39,982 It's not doing a lot for me lately. 242 00:14:39,982 --> 00:14:44,159 Well, faith isn't gonna monitor this brain tumor. 243 00:14:47,541 --> 00:14:51,614 Right now I need science as much as I need faith. 244 00:14:52,719 --> 00:14:53,893 I mean, you're a doctor. 245 00:14:53,893 --> 00:14:55,446 You dedicate your entire life to science 246 00:14:55,446 --> 00:14:58,863 and right now you need faith, that's all. 247 00:15:00,071 --> 00:15:01,624 We need each other. 248 00:15:02,902 --> 00:15:04,593 Body and soul. 249 00:15:04,593 --> 00:15:07,389 10 years of medical school. 250 00:15:07,389 --> 00:15:11,220 All I could think is God is punishing me. 251 00:15:11,220 --> 00:15:13,222 Did you think that 252 00:15:13,222 --> 00:15:15,121 when I showed you your scans? 253 00:15:15,121 --> 00:15:16,916 No. 254 00:15:16,916 --> 00:15:18,918 I thought you were punishing me. 255 00:15:18,918 --> 00:15:20,436 I was, a little. 256 00:15:23,232 --> 00:15:24,716 Sorry. 257 00:15:24,716 --> 00:15:26,028 I forgive you. 258 00:15:29,549 --> 00:15:30,377 I'm sorry. 259 00:15:33,587 --> 00:15:34,864 I'm sorry I didn't listen to you when 260 00:15:34,864 --> 00:15:37,384 you came to that confession. 261 00:15:37,384 --> 00:15:38,834 It's, ah, 262 00:15:38,834 --> 00:15:40,870 it's a terrible day. 263 00:15:40,870 --> 00:15:43,873 A bad day, but a bad string of days. 264 00:15:45,496 --> 00:15:47,808 You know, eventually you look back 265 00:15:47,808 --> 00:15:51,951 and you know that they changed your life for the better. 266 00:15:55,678 --> 00:15:56,783 There's that. 267 00:15:58,474 --> 00:16:00,097 That lesson. 268 00:16:00,097 --> 00:16:04,239 I know all this pain that you're going through, 269 00:16:04,239 --> 00:16:08,346 all this sadness, it's so you can have that baby. 270 00:16:10,314 --> 00:16:11,798 When you have that kid, 271 00:16:11,798 --> 00:16:13,593 all that pain, it's gonna hold a different place 272 00:16:13,593 --> 00:16:14,766 in your heart. 273 00:16:14,766 --> 00:16:17,528 What are you talking about? 274 00:16:17,528 --> 00:16:19,495 Are you talking about your tumor? 275 00:16:19,495 --> 00:16:22,153 No, it's not the tumor. 276 00:16:22,153 --> 00:16:23,948 Anyway, it's, I didn't, I didn't even know 277 00:16:23,948 --> 00:16:24,880 about that then. 278 00:16:24,880 --> 00:16:26,986 I had symptoms, but I was, 279 00:16:26,986 --> 00:16:28,849 it was something else. 280 00:16:31,197 --> 00:16:32,543 This is your confession, Agnes. 281 00:16:32,543 --> 00:16:34,200 I defied God's law. 282 00:16:34,200 --> 00:16:35,718 Please forgive me. 283 00:16:37,720 --> 00:16:40,240 And you were mean to me at the hospital. 284 00:16:40,240 --> 00:16:44,417 And I was a little bit mean to you at the hospital. 285 00:16:45,590 --> 00:16:47,523 Anything else? 286 00:16:47,523 --> 00:16:51,493 I've been a little bit mean to everybody lately. 287 00:16:51,493 --> 00:16:54,047 My sister was against in-vitro. 288 00:16:55,221 --> 00:16:56,636 I was waitin' for it and sure enough, 289 00:16:56,636 --> 00:16:59,811 she said, "I told you so," yesterday. 290 00:17:00,985 --> 00:17:02,952 I called her the C word. 291 00:17:05,748 --> 00:17:06,577 Good. 292 00:17:08,130 --> 00:17:10,788 I mean, as long as you're sorry. 293 00:17:10,788 --> 00:17:13,170 I'm a little sorry. 294 00:17:13,170 --> 00:17:14,550 Fine. 295 00:17:14,550 --> 00:17:17,001 I was just so angry at God. 296 00:17:20,039 --> 00:17:21,040 Of course. 297 00:17:22,041 --> 00:17:24,284 That's all right? 298 00:17:31,084 --> 00:17:34,708 Don't stay angry at God for long. 299 00:17:34,708 --> 00:17:36,641 You'll regret it later. 300 00:17:38,022 --> 00:17:41,060 Is he gonna tell me he's sorry? 301 00:17:41,060 --> 00:17:43,200 If you listen close he'll say he loves you. 302 00:17:43,200 --> 00:17:46,030 No, Father, I've heard that before. 303 00:17:46,030 --> 00:17:47,687 God does love you. 304 00:17:50,621 --> 00:17:52,830 What was, what was your thing? 305 00:17:52,830 --> 00:17:55,764 The terrible thing that ended up wonderful? 306 00:17:55,764 --> 00:17:58,353 I don't think I should say it. 307 00:17:58,353 --> 00:18:01,563 Well, what terrible thing ends up wonderful? 308 00:18:01,563 --> 00:18:06,292 The day I kicked you out of the confessional? 309 00:18:06,292 --> 00:18:08,121 I found out I'm a dad. 310 00:18:10,675 --> 00:18:13,402 Years ago, out of high school. 311 00:18:13,402 --> 00:18:15,991 Became a dad and I didn't know. 312 00:18:18,890 --> 00:18:20,927 I'd just seen her for the first time that day. 313 00:18:20,927 --> 00:18:22,929 You fuckin' hypocrite. 314 00:18:22,929 --> 00:18:25,483 I thought I'd lose everything. 315 00:18:25,483 --> 00:18:27,002 Job, what I thought I was. 316 00:18:27,002 --> 00:18:30,868 But you have got to come to realize that 317 00:18:30,868 --> 00:18:32,904 no matter what you lose in the process, 318 00:18:32,904 --> 00:18:34,734 you will gain a child. 319 00:18:36,115 --> 00:18:38,255 We're not so different. 320 00:18:38,255 --> 00:18:39,428 Yes, we are. 321 00:18:44,399 --> 00:18:46,677 Some day, isn't it? 322 00:18:46,677 --> 00:18:49,231 When I look at my girlfriends with their babies 323 00:18:49,231 --> 00:18:50,957 and I resent them? 324 00:18:50,957 --> 00:18:51,785 Oh yeah. 325 00:18:53,304 --> 00:18:55,858 Well, I confess that. 326 00:18:55,858 --> 00:18:58,551 Do you want to say a prayer? 327 00:18:58,551 --> 00:19:00,725 For the, the one you lost? 328 00:19:04,419 --> 00:19:06,869 Did you give the baby a name? 329 00:19:16,845 --> 00:19:18,536 Lord God, ever caring and gentle, 330 00:19:18,536 --> 00:19:21,815 we commit to your love this little one, 331 00:19:24,128 --> 00:19:27,994 quickened to life for so short a time. 332 00:19:27,994 --> 00:19:30,755 Enfold this soul in eternal life. 333 00:19:32,240 --> 00:19:34,034 And we pray for Agnes 334 00:19:36,071 --> 00:19:38,177 who is saddened by the loss of her child. 335 00:19:38,177 --> 00:19:41,318 Give her strength and give her courage 336 00:19:41,318 --> 00:19:43,182 in her time of sorrow. 337 00:19:44,321 --> 00:19:46,564 May the two of them meet again one day 338 00:19:46,564 --> 00:19:48,946 in the joy and the peace of your kingdom. 339 00:19:48,946 --> 00:19:52,467 We ask this through Christ our Lord. 340 00:19:52,467 --> 00:19:54,917 Amen. 341 00:19:59,198 --> 00:20:01,786 Do you think it has a soul, Father? 342 00:20:01,786 --> 00:20:03,685 What do you think it was? 343 00:20:03,685 --> 00:20:07,344 All I know for sure is it was a heartbeat. 344 00:20:08,310 --> 00:20:10,001 The rest is faith. 345 00:20:12,176 --> 00:20:14,972 Maybe that's what I'll call her. 346 00:20:14,972 --> 00:20:16,629 Just for myself. 347 00:20:16,629 --> 00:20:17,457 Faith. 348 00:20:40,377 --> 00:20:42,344 How's the rumor mill these days, Sister? 349 00:20:44,243 --> 00:20:48,419 The Lord works in strange and entertaining ways, Father. 350 00:20:49,903 --> 00:20:53,631 You certainly have made quite the impression. 351 00:20:55,288 --> 00:20:56,634 I don't need you here. 352 00:20:56,634 --> 00:20:58,464 I know you don't. 353 00:20:58,464 --> 00:20:59,948 But I don't mind. 354 00:21:01,329 --> 00:21:05,850 It's just the kind of service I find fulfilling, Father. 355 00:21:05,850 --> 00:21:07,680 Carrying for the lame. 356 00:21:09,268 --> 00:21:11,994 It's nice to feel needed. 357 00:21:11,994 --> 00:21:13,064 There you go. 358 00:21:14,169 --> 00:21:15,722 I don't need you. 359 00:21:18,069 --> 00:21:18,898 Well... 360 00:21:20,658 --> 00:21:23,420 I think that you need an ally now 361 00:21:24,904 --> 00:21:26,146 more than ever. 362 00:21:27,286 --> 00:21:29,633 People are wondering whether there is 363 00:21:29,633 --> 00:21:32,463 a future for you in this vocation. 364 00:21:34,085 --> 00:21:38,262 I'm just so pleased they think I have a future at all. 365 00:21:39,401 --> 00:21:41,265 You're just gonna have to surprise them 366 00:21:41,265 --> 00:21:42,853 and get yourself better, now aren't you? 367 00:21:42,853 --> 00:21:43,681 Stop. 368 00:21:46,097 --> 00:21:46,926 I'm fine. 369 00:21:48,479 --> 00:21:49,756 Leave me alone. 370 00:22:05,531 --> 00:22:07,533 Goodnight, John Dominic. 371 00:22:08,775 --> 00:22:10,674 Sweet dreams, Father. 372 00:22:15,782 --> 00:22:18,509 What is it that's gotten worse? 373 00:22:21,270 --> 00:22:23,342 It's not the side effects 374 00:22:24,998 --> 00:22:27,346 that has you worried, is it? 375 00:22:33,352 --> 00:22:35,112 Are they your dreams? 376 00:22:36,355 --> 00:22:37,286 Nightmares? 377 00:22:43,465 --> 00:22:45,640 You told your doctor this? 378 00:22:47,780 --> 00:22:50,679 How are they dreams if I'm not asleep? 379 00:22:50,679 --> 00:22:53,406 Oh, what do you think they are? 380 00:22:55,132 --> 00:22:56,375 I don't know why they come to me. 381 00:22:56,375 --> 00:22:58,515 I don't know why they appear to me. 382 00:22:58,515 --> 00:23:01,276 You think that these are actual 383 00:23:02,139 --> 00:23:03,727 saints appearing to you? 384 00:23:03,727 --> 00:23:04,555 Angels? 385 00:23:07,696 --> 00:23:10,630 But this, the growth in your brain, 386 00:23:12,045 --> 00:23:14,531 I mean, that's an explanation. 387 00:23:15,428 --> 00:23:17,603 So it needs to be treated. 388 00:23:23,609 --> 00:23:26,888 If saints are talking to you, 389 00:23:26,888 --> 00:23:29,304 if they were trying to tell you something, 390 00:23:29,304 --> 00:23:30,823 would you listen to them or would you 391 00:23:30,823 --> 00:23:32,825 try and get rid of them? 392 00:23:34,309 --> 00:23:37,968 You're afraid that if you lose this tumor, 393 00:23:39,521 --> 00:23:42,386 you lose your visitations. 394 00:23:42,386 --> 00:23:44,146 That they'll go away. 395 00:23:47,080 --> 00:23:50,325 The surgery didn't make them go away. 396 00:23:51,878 --> 00:23:53,397 I made them angry.